Girls
are like apples
on trees. The best ones
are at the top of the tree. The
boys don't want to reach for the good
ones because they are afraid of falling and
getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the
apples at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for
the right boy to come
along, the one
who's brave
enough
to climb
all the
way
to the
top
of the tree.

saw this somewhere..
i think it's so true.
do you?

The past two weekends were good. and now this weekend, looking forward to just chill and have a good rest with my family. maybe sing k. lol.
im good ok!

really had fun at Lyn's 21st.
esp. catching up w my friends.
elmo's particularly funny.
became more irritating. haha in a good way.
it's really nice to see everyone again.

didnt realise how much i miss the good old days until i flipped the yearbooks.
me, ee mei and elmo then started laughing at eachothers' old crushes.
we all looked silly. haha.

i miss the good old days.
but i must make the days to come better.

felt uneasy somehow..
because of someone.
i yearn, but im helpless.
and hopeless.

Had a wonderful time at angela's place yesterday. Was her 21st. came home from hall and was kinda hesitating whether to go or not. in the end decided to go ahead. washed up and rushed down. her place is so far! hougang. that's like mars to me.anyway, received a call from jon ng jus when i was still doing my hair. great to hear his wacky voice. turns out that the others were all at hougang station already. except me. hahah. well i decided to meet up w alex at outram station first since he's late too. and then i lied to aud and the rest that im not going cos my dad's not too happy bout it. lol.

just imagine the shocked faces when i appeared at angela's. esp my darling AUDDIE!
she looked retarded. hahhaha..
im sooo soooo glad i went.
missed all of my legion buddies so much.
it's been long.
i think, at least an 8 months absence.

the food's rather nice, but maybe alittle cold by the time me and alex got there.
there were many of angela's family members. KIDS! cute kids all trying to blow out the flames of the candles. oh, some other CJ peeps were there too. from choir, jus like angela.
heard they even sang songs for her. that's sweet.

when the clock strikes 9, i practically rushed into the hall to watch The Golden Path aka huang jin lu. all my friends were like what? you're into chinese dramas too?
lol.... but guess what?
Daniel sat next to me on the stairs!
seems like im not the only one following that drama.
and then aud and sarah came along.
Daniel can even explain certain parts of the show to me which i didnt catch.
that was a huge surprise. cos it's DANIEL.
does he even know how to write his chinese name?? :P

auddie and sarah got to try my infamous roasted marshmallows.
crisp on the outside, chewy, no, not chewy, hmmm... that's right, juicy on the inside.
it's like sweet creamy froth wrapped in warm crisp skin.
melts in your mouth, not in your hands.
:)

the rest of the gang sat on chairs lined near the gate and were chit chatting away.
that's the side of life that's good.
really good.
sad that a few people didnt go though.



where oh where could my baby be?
the good Lord took him away from me...

grown. the roots have grown.
the leaves are opening slowly but surely to the sunshine.
and very soon, ahh, the fruits.

:)

im reporting from camp right now. bored, need to study but still hahaha. staying in hall is like staying in an army camp.

every sun night book in, fri night book out.

right aderat? ;)



anyway, heard from my mom that my 2nd sis went shopping w her yesterday. and they shopped at TWO shops only. zara and donnoe wad.

well, they spent about 600++ bucks! *gasp

but, hey divide that by 3, it's only bout 200++bucks per person.

cos all 3 of us share our clothes. haha.

most of the time alicia'a the one doing the shopping, cos she has quite a good dress sense (though i dont wear everything she buys), eleanor buys clothes that are so totally unwearable or will she even buy clothes?? and me, i hate to try on clothes, change here change there, so yup. alicia will do the shopping. :)



Lyn my dearest and noisiest friend's 21st is coming!

old woman. w her ard the noise pollution level will hit the maximum.

this year gotta save alot of money. everyone around me is turning 21st!

all except me.

im forever 18.

hahaha.



Samantha emailed this to me and i thought it was good to share:



Don't Give Up -

One day I decided to quit...

I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality. ..

I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

'God', I asked, 'Can you give me one good reason not to quit?'

His answer surprised me...

'Look around', He said. 'Do you see the fern and the bamboo?'

'Yes', I replied.

'When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.

I gave them light. I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor.

Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.

And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo.

He said. 'In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit.'

He said.'Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.

Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant. .....

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.

It had spent the five years growing roots.

Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.'

He asked me. 'Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots'.

'I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you.'

'Don't compare yourself to others.' He said.

'The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.

Yet they both make the forest beautiful.'

'Your time will come', God said to me. 'You will rise high'

'How high should I rise?' I asked.

'How high will the bamboo rise?' He asked in return.

'As high as it can?' I questioned.

'Yes.' He said, 'Give me glory by rising as high as you can.'

I left the forest and brought back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

Never, Never, Never Give up.

For the Christian, Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.

Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is,
tell the problem how Great the Lord is!

My God,
I lay at Thy feet, my burden of suffering, sadness, and renunciation;
I offer all through the heart of Jesus;
and I ask Thy Love to transform these trials into joy and holiness for those I love,
grace for souls, and precious gifts for Thy Church.
Into this abyss of physical prostration, discomfort, and moral weariness, into these shadows into which Thou hast plunged me, let a glimmer of Thy triumphant brightness shine.
Or rather, since the shadows of Gethsemane and Calvary are fruitful,
use all this ill for the good of everyone.
Help me to hide my inner desolation and spiritual poverty beneath the riches of smiles and the splendors of charity.
When the Cross grows heavier, put Thy gentle hand under the burden Thou hast laid on my soul and on my aching body.

Servant of God - Elisabeth Leseur


it's amazing. God's grace.
i was blerdy fed up and stressed regarding my modules registration and allocation.
i panicked like mad and jus felt that the entire sem is gonna crash and be terrible.

so i calmed myself down and said a little prayer, asking for help.
in less than a week 2 out of 3 of my problems were solved.
jus like that.
the elective i wanted suddenly had a slot when i came back from the toilet. (i tried to get a place for a very looooooong time)
and surprisingly my friend agreed to switch tutorial groups w me.
(i asked several others but all declined.)

it's amazing. God's grace.

thank you.

Don't Quit.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit—
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is odd with its twists and turns,
As everyone sometimes learns.
And many a person turns about
When an individual might have won
had he or she stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow—
You may succeed with yet another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than it seems
To a faint and faltering woman or man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he or she might have captured the victor's cup;
And one learned too late when the night came down,
How close he or she was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out—
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And when you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit—
It's when things seem worst, you mustn't quit.

Very pek-chek over my subjects registration now. kinda worried about this sem too. 'cos there's gonna be a laboratory test implemented for this semester, argh. all cos of some rat who complained about not getting an A when he/she ought to. get a life!

plus, there's this Mastering Communication module that is my core mod... -_- i hate presentations. to the CORE. oh well, since i cant change anything, might as well make the best of it.

We must all be converted anew every day...
Being converted means turning to the very grace of our vocation;
it means meditating upon the infinite goodness and love of Christ,
who has addressed each of us and calling us by name, has said, "Follow Me."
Being converted means continually giving an account before the Lord of our hearts,
about our service, our zeal and our fidelity, for we are Christ's servants.
Being converted also means giving an account of our negligences and sins,
of our timidity, of our lack of faith and hope.
Being converted means for us,
seeking again the pardon and strength of God in the Sacrament of Reconciliation...
Being converted means to pray continually and never lose heart.
In a certain way, prayer is the first and last condition for conversion, spiritual progress, and holiness.

- Pope John Paul II

You must fear only one thing that comes to try you, and that is sin.
Everything else is of no account at all: plots, quarrels, betrayals, lies, abuses, accusations, confiscations, exile, sharp swords... Nothing lasts.
All these things pass away.
They may affect our mortal body but they cannot injure our soul.
When the apostle Paul wished to bring home to us the insignificance of earthly worries and pains, he summed it up, "The things that are seen are transient."
Why then should you fear transient things that will come and go in a never-ending line?
...Do not be worried by all these things.
Stop running after shadows, for all human efforts are no more than that.
Instead call out again and again to Jesus whom you adore, and ask him just to turn towards you. Then your sorrows will be banished in the twinkling of an eye.
-St John Chrysostom


though i dont 'grow up' watching shows by MC King, and am not a great fan of his, but his sudden death shocked me. afterall, im so used to catching the occasional lame jokes of his on teevee.
all these 'sudden deaths' occuring in the past year alone is kinda scary.
you dont know when the grim reaper comes for you.
so cherish your life, and cherish everything and anything that you have.

the time has come.
the official end of my semester 1 break.
sigh.
though being a student is definitely a better option than a working adult, can you just imagine the mental roller-coaster we have to go through: hols, sch, hols, sch.
ive been slacking big time this hols.
chionged so many dramas on teevee, online.
played computer games.
sleeeeeeeep.
i used to take 1 or 2 hrs nap. but now i can nap for 4hrs straight! and it's only a nap!

how can i get my school life back on track.
and shit!
my thursdays are GONE.
10hrs straight of sch from 0930 to 1930hrs.
no breaks in between!
good luck to me when i get back to hall after school.
my roommate's gonna think im dead.

my pet hammie, Cream (i supposed, cos i cant differentiate Cream from Butter), has sadly gone to the other world. the cause of death being, her 2 cagemates fought and eventually ate her.
yes, ATE her.
not entirely though. just her head.
it was gross. i was too scared to look at first.
and my poor sister who's very attached to the hammies was crying.
i cleared all our hammies that passed away last time.
probably that's why i'd learnt not to be too attached to them.
afterall, who cries for the chickens, ducks, sheep, cows and pigs?
but this time, i was really really scared to clear the corpse.
cos i just cant believe that they can eat someone of their own kind.
like the poor baby hammie that i had to remove from Cream (the mum) months back, as the idiotic mother was eating her own flesh and blood.
it's just animal instinct.
to them, its not wrong. because what's right and what's wrong is determined by man. we created morals and ethnics.
so........... rest in peace, Cream.

happy new year 2008

my mom and dad bought a new karaoke stereo system. with the power speakers and all.
hahaha omg. and my dad was singing till 2am last night.
well, as long as he's happy, im glad.
poor neighbours though.

every year this time, on new year's eve, each of us calls out a soft prayer to God above, or simply a hidden promise made to oneself hoping that the new year will be better.
in 2006, i hoped that 2007 would be better.
but it was one of the worst.
still, there are blessings to count.
the greatest blessing being, since 07 was so bad, 08 surely cant be any worse.
God gave me a bad year so that through His lessons, i can slowly unwrap the gifts He prepared for me for the new year in 2008.
gifts of humility, love, care, thoughtfulness, not to be judgemental, to be sensitive towards others, to see someone for who he/she truly is.

for all of these, i thank You from the bottom of my heart, Lord.
and no matter what 2008 brings, i know that i have You right beside me.

a news broke my heart last night.
just as everyone was celebrating and cheering on the new year, jus as the night sky was filled with the vibrant colours of fireworks, my dearest friend was by her dead father's side.
her dad had jus passed away the day before the eve due to a heart attack.

and so, please pray for her dad's soul to be in peace and also for her and her family.

for jermaine:
As We Prayed - Edgar Guest
Often as we watched him there
From our lips there fell this prayer:
"God, give us the pain to bear!
Let us suffer in his place,
Take the anguish from his face,
Soothe his with Thy holy grace."

Then the angels came, and they
Took his lovely soul away
From the torture house of clay.
As we'd prayed, they brought release,
Smoothed his brow with gentle peace,
But our pain shall never cease.

Ours is now the hurt to bear,
Ours the anguish and despair,
Ours the agony to share.
When our hearts with grief were stirred,
Thus we prayed and thus were heard,
Shall we fail to keep our word?

and for everyone:

A New Year's Prayer - www.appleseeds.org

May God make your year a happy one!

Not by shielding you from all sorrows and pain,
But by strengthening you to bear it, as it comes;

Not by making your path easy,
But by making you sturdy to travel any path;

Not by taking hardships from you,
But by taking fear from your heart;

Not by granting you unbroken sunshine,
But by keeping your face bright, even in the shadows;

Not by making your life always pleasant,
But by showing you when people and their causes need you most,
and by making you anxious to be there to help.

God's love, peace, hope and joy to you for the year ahead.