There is no fear in love.

But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.

The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

- 1 John 4:18

Peeps! The Princess is going to Thailand from 25th june till the 30th june.

so i'll be MIA for awhile but go on, keep missing me.... :D

On awakening, raise your whole soul to God, and filling yourself with His Divine presence, do homage to the Blessed Trinity. . . saying, I consecrate to you my whole day for the pure love of You and for Your greater glory. I do not know what is to happen to me today, whether troublesome things or pleasant ones. . .It will be as you please. . .Nature seeks self in everything, even in virtues and the holiest practices of piety. . .We must keep a careful watch especially on things for which we feel an attachment, in order that we may be ready to sacrifice what pleases us, to comply with the legitimate desires of our neighbor and above all to practice obedience. God’s will must always take precedence over our own desires, however holy these may appear to us.

-Father Jean Pierre De Caussade, S.J.

Went to cut my hair yest.
alittle short. but like it though.
i figure long hair really doesnt suit me.
it's irritating and i definitely think i wear a shorter hairdo better.
went to cut w my sisters and little cousin. 4 girls, hair cut trip. hah.
uncle Julian was funny. kept saying "im gg to cut alre ar? ok ar?"
but he's one cool good experienced hairdresser. felt safe w my hair in his hands.

after that went to eat LJS and walked around tiong cos tt eleanor wants to get stuff.
went home to take a nap, was darn tired cos i was out in the morning, brought jazz to her jap
class before meeting the yens for haircut.
woke up, washed up and headed to town to meet lyn, shili, tiratch and elmo for dinner.
pastamania! still as sucky as ever! yay!
but okay la, i dont live to eat. i eat to live.
oh, do you know i wanna live up to a hundred years?
who wanna bet! who can live longer.
not that the winner will gain anything from the loser though...
caught The Happening after dinner. err. kinda scary.
personally, it shouldnt be rated PG. a NC16 would be more appropriate to me.
but i hate the ending. shows that either have no proper closure. or make you guess the eventual outcome. lame! i dont watch a show just to be left hanging somewhere without knowing the answer.
i need answers. i want answers to everything.

lyn woo jia jia the gossip irritating self-denial bitch called me fat.
lyn, one word for you: WHATEVER!
hahahaha.
cant wait to go thailand w her. mad woman.

my sister sang part of this song to me when i came home last night:

Que Sera Sera - by Doris Day

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

yea, i guess.
that's right, whatever will be, will be.
if it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

but i cant stop harping about it.

Special sem exam yest morn.
dreadful. those that i've studied, i can do.
those that i didnt study for, hell of cos i cant do. smoked through them all.
sigh. it's too late for regrets now.
i'm just not disciplined enough. so either i start pulling my socks up or not to take special sem ever again.

after the paper i went to tutor Heather. then headed to grandma's place to rest and have dinner before i tutor jesslyn at 1930hrs.
slept at 3am plus the night before and woke at 6am. so i was darn tired man. with exam and 2 tuitions in a day. then there's movie marathon! ben came around ten when i was washed up and settling to read Urban. so we caught: She's The Man, American Pie 2 and Alvin & The Chipmunks.
She's The Man's one hot show!!! damn hilarious!!! highly recommended man.
plus you have so many hot guys in one show. robert hoffman, james kirk and channing tatum!!!
me and alicia were practically drooling all over and that jealous ben sneered us. whatever.

after all of yest's excitment, i woke up at 1130 this morn.
gonna leave the house for tuition soon. and till then everyone.

my 21st birthday celebration.. what can I say?
I'm so truly blessed with family, friends and people who stepped into my life every step of the way.
thanks, firstly to my Lord,
thanks dear all. for the gifts but more importantly for your presence which made me feel real special.

bet you guys didn't know smth.
the restaurant made a mistake. and it was a heart stopping one. they thought that the party's on sun instead of sat.
I broke down cos people were already on their way and there was nothing prepared AT ALL.
luckily, all went well. and I must really thank the staff and uncle raymond, the boss. they rushed everything out. it's a miracle that they have extra stock too. they started cooking like 7? that explains the salad and soup first haha. to cover up!

special mention to lyn and gang but more of lyn. for her stupid idea to take my word for real. i told her I wanted a hot bf for by bday and she dragged Seth's bro to the party. a scribblings on his arm. forced to hold hands and take a photo. haha ass.
but thanks.

so many people who came, man, from my heart I truly appreciate it.
you made my night.
but for those who couldn't make it, thanks for the well-wishes.

may post some pica here. but it's better if you view it on facebook.
so, for those who still have no idea what a facebook is, for goodness' sake START A BLOODY ACC.!!

One thing's definite.
should i go for ANY camp again, i'll soak myself in insect repellent the night before, then stick 10patches on my body, plus carry a burning mosqitoe coil around with me.

Blerdy hell!
just a two days one night camp has gotten my long sexy legs (some may say; obviously not the jealous ones haha!) into an ugly piece of meat with red polka dots all around.
and it's 4 days to my 21st bday celebration. wonderful.
maybe the theme of the party should be ladybird.
thank you sandflies!

the camp was good though.
had some fun times. and some simply sleep-deprived times.

my exam for special sem is coming soon - 12th june.
shit. havent study for it. im so dead.
2more days to the release of exam results for last semester.
may not want to check it till after my birthday. haha. some of you may know that i love living in denial.

afterall, isn't ignorance a bliss?

on a sidenote, kinda nervous for saturday.
cos.. it's like really weird to invite people to celebrate my bday?
some celebrations that i had in the past were surprises thrown to me. unexpected.
but this time, i gotta play host.
and it's...
weird. plus there'll be so many people.
i hope i wont be in shock.

God bless all.

had a good chat w chinchunwai on msn last night.
talked bout alot of stuff.. catching up and all..
and yes, like he said,
i should leave the past to the past.